Starting Over.

I am starting over. Starting something new. Starting to see d habits in my ex husband again. Habits that make me think that he is lying to me more than I know he has been. Starting to see that things have not changed for him. He says “I have changed I am not going back to the old me!” Oh my dear bless your heart but I see differently. You get asked to not sleep over cuz it’s uncomfortable then you’re upset saying “ this is crap I am the dad I should be here.” For real we have not had you in our lives, in our homes and in our thoughts for 7 months and now you want to be here.

I don’t go on my phone, don’t go on Facebook or talk to my friends. Since you are back in habit of getting pissed off at who I talk to. You have not changed. Your pushy, your mean, your not listening, and your not respecting rules and boundaries. So why should I let you back in?

However I am starting over!!!! I am bettering my health, my mental health, my family life, and clearing out all NEGATIVE thoughts, vibes and words. Yes the world is fucked up right now, but it dose not mean my life and the kids lives should be!

So start over, move on, and leave me alone. I am not wanting what you want so STOP asking

Signed

Jessica Ballard/Harris